You know how I said that I was going to work on my application package to get into the CFC Television writing program?  I have been working on it, but it’s been with the desperation of knowing that I am rushing and not giving it my best effort.  These things need time.

I was talking with my friend Cath yesterday and she suggested the possibility of waiting a year to submit to the program.  Wait a year?  And put together a prepared package that has had time to be worked and rewritten and improved?  Was she crazy?

I think I was the crazy one to think that I could put together the package in so short a time.  I mean, I can put together something, but if I gave it time, it could be so much better.  It’s hard to do your best when part of you keeps “glancing at the clock” to see how much time you have left.  My best writing has been done over time.

Now, I know in the world of television writing you don’t always have time, but that’s a different kettle of fish.  My application would be vying against other applicants who have spent more time working on their package.  People who haven’t been writing a play or performing in one.  Or both!!!

So, I’m going to take a deep breath and relax.

Part of the craziness has been fueled by the idea that the timing of the course is perfect.  My work has been outsourced and my final working days coincide with the beginning of the CFC class.  It’s awesome – I could end work and start classes.

However, that doesn’t mean that the timing is perfect for putting together a package.   If I give myself a year to get ready then I think I stand a pretty good chance of getting in.  And if I don’t get in, at least I’ll know that I gave it my best shot.  If I submit now, I won’t be putting forward my best work.

It also gives me a year to really think about the implications of taking the class and not having an income for at least five months.  It’s a big life change.

Deciding to wait is tough.  I’m full of adrenaline.  I really want to be starting the class this September.  September 2013 is so far away.  Part of me feels like I’m giving up.

But I’m being tactical.  It doesn’t make sense to submit something that I won’t be proud of.  So, I’ll keep working on the submission, but I’ll hand it next year.